So many ideas... so little time!!

The challenge I face currently is one I am sure that many other artists face in today's society... it's trying to find the resources to be able to physically create. It seems to be such a shame having all of these wonderful, exciting creations just lined up in my noggen without the time and unlimited ($) resources that I yearn for. At this time I support my family in a job that is less than ideal for creation, the stress coupled with the pay of a non-profit does not lend it self to a creative spirit. I make do though, knowing that I am helping others as a career and that at least I can put food on the table for now. I do feel that there may be a little pocket of regret for not pursing the fine arts more during college, but then again you either get lucky and find a great gig in that pursuit or you are left in a drowning sea of starving artists.... It began in college, I was a double major out of the gate, but as I spent more time in the arts the more I was encouraged to quote "look towards a real future and field".... I knew then that for this art inside of me to come out and be expressed that it would be a challenge in the adult world for me. I had been constantly encouraged and supported in all of my artistic endeavors, but during my pivotal years of self discovery and career exploration I was surrounded by folks who seemed as if it were their duty to reason with me, to make me grow up, and for some reason convince my inner core of creativeness that it needed to go deep inside and live as a hobby. Inside it has been for almost a decade, welling up to the point where this creativeness feels like it will rupture covering everything I touch in bright colors and glitter. Maybe deep inside under all of this creativity and all of the ideas there is a piece of my heart that feels that creating could be my career, that it could be my success story, and that one day it will allow the lifestyle I dream of... in a studio, networked with other artists, creating everything my big 'ole Texas heart desires and in turn making my own way. This is where Grease Kitten comes in. I am now creating a place where I can document my own personal artistic struggle. That's why I am writing today, in hopes of showing where I have been complacent with my abilities, taking them for granted, sitting on a shelf in my heart..... and documenting my tale of an adventure back to those ideas and dreams that had been left behind and hopefully to a new path of self-discovery, and self-teaching and artistic exploration. This is a challenge or DARE to myself to pick up where I left off. Even if the rest of the world is not in my creations, maybe this process will intrigue them. If no one cares and no one listens, then maybe this will be a glorified journal for myself. If the latter is the case, then at least I can show that I lived, I explored, I thought, I laughed, I created, I loved, I drove, I shared, and most of all.... I tried. If you're an artist deep inside, let me hear an Amen!!